socks and such

The Bad

Went from fulltime to casual hours at work... all because they keep hiring too many "management positions" and then having to cut the rest of us down with no warning.
So im making next to no money from working.
So that makes me a bit angry.

My internet is funked. i dont know whats going on with mozilla but its annoying me. If my igoogle gadgets completely load it'll crash the internet.. if i send an email it instantly closes. Same as a msg in facebook. If i have more than one tab open..
arrg...><

no money for drinks at vortex =[

My hair is all uneven and needs a cut so badly.. Good news though, the pink is holding strong. =]

The Good

Going to the vortex tomorrow night (the sad: Dez prolly wont come cuz our babysitter had to cancel, but he may be hanging with chris at our place? still waiting on confirmation) So it'll just be me and brady and Nin + her sister maybe. Apparently only clean un marking shoes can be worn on the dance floor. (super clean no sand/rocks nothing) So sock dancing may be required. we'll see how well I can clean my boots.

I have an interview at Ardenes in centre mall tomorrow morning before work. Hope I can get full time hours there if im hired.

I love my psp. Its awesome. The games rock. So far we have Crisis core final fantasy 7, Final Fantasy 1 psp version, some war game for dez and ratchet and clank game. We wanna buy worms open warfare cuz it look awesome but we have to wait till we have spending cash again.
We also bought a hacked battery online with our new prepaid mastercard :P (the debit like ones that can go online from moneymart) so we will be abel to add a snes emulator plus more... hehe more final fantasy and mario! hehehehe

Random Thoughts

>I really want to get new body jewelery, maybe a stud again for my nose, a ball for my lip and some sort of new eyebrow ring. I need a change.

>man next month im going to be 21... its weird to think about. Last year i was freaking cuz i was turning 20, and that bugged me/overjoyed me more than turning 21, oh well. life goes on

>i need a new mouse for my comp too.. hmm...

> Doms been cute lately, horrible temper... but still cute. He loves playing outside. and he is getting better with staying close to us outside.

> Tysene and my mom have been in the back of my mind, ive been stuck in a rut trying to understand death, and i kno you really cant, especially without faith, so its just an annoying loop. I wish neither of them had to pass on, I miss them both very much.
Ive been getting more memories from my childhood (i had blocked most of my happy times out when my mom passed, wasnt ready to handle all of the mommy and me times i guess) and sometime they flood in and i cant stand it, its like the most intense pain is inside me and not physical but so painful and i just need to scream and cry and fall to the ground and never get up. and lucky for me they happen at the most convenient times, like at work... but ive been learning to handle them. Im also starting to enjoy some of the memories, they still hurt but i can smile sometimes now with the recurring ones.

>im sleepy... and its only 10 pm... I suck..

Goodnight

Written

So im going try and make a dj list for the underground on the 18th. I usually hate making lists cuz one im lazy and two I like playing off the ppl and the mood i feel when im djing, but maybe I will try.

I'll attempt my list tomorrow hopefully. I'll update.

Any suggestions?

(music that can be played : gothic rock, darkwave, industrial, 80s rock

^_^

fu<|<

arg. stupid job.

Didnt get paid today, even tho they told me the cut off dates are sat (i had started working before last sat) and they cant find my paycheck so they gave up (after not calling me back for 4 hours) and said it will be added to my next paycheck. sob..
>.<

honestly, i clearly dont need the money, so therefore they dont care. bills have to be paid, food has to be bought. but what do they care, they are just un-intelligent humans that when they dont know what to do they just give up or push it further away and stop caring.

I just want to work with ppl who are intelligent.
im sick of this.

in wanna punch something..

I hate living in today's society. Everything is created to make life easier. and so brings on ppl who are lazy and dont care.
and i will gladly admit i am also one of the lazy ones, very much so, but I dont push things to the side when i dont like the outcome, or if i dont know what to do. I figure things out. I try to help ppl whens there is a problem. but most ppl just sweep it under the rug.

my glasses are crooked

RAWR

body pain

tiredness. my legs and arms are soe, but i think im doing ok. still havent learned till so I feel useless a lot, but ive been helping in the fitting rooms. I actually gave a good fashion idea to a little girl an dher mom.

the little girl was just pre teen amd i think her mom was tryign to help her be cool cuz she was a bit bigger and all that. The mom didnt want any low cut tops or with holes near the top. SO i helped her find some, and we got a nice tank top and the length was long (as they all are nowadays) and I suggested she scrunch it up at the bottom and it really did help to hide her tummy bump, the mom even aproved.
i felt useful, lol
I also helped some parents find some skull-less tshirts.. paernts aer funny when they buy kids clothing.

so yea pain, still not "loving" the job, but i think i may need time to understand everything.

taknig the bus isnt too bad, still a bit cold while waiting for the ide home. But its only a 10 min bus ride. Really short and simple.

im excited to have 2 days off though. my body hurts.

First day

First day at stitches. I loved the ppl who work with me, they are all awesome. So far hate the job. Its so easy that it is annoying and diffucult to find more thigns to do when the store is near empty. When everythgn is clean all ppl are being helped. There isnt much left to do but stand there, but then you get in trouble, so most the gils just randomly make messes with the pants (accidently knock over pile etc) so they have somethign to do.

I hope once i learn till it will be better i hate floor work.. lol

second day tomrorow.


PS thinking it still may be worth it for the discount ^_-

New Adventures

So I start work tomorrow. yay! lol. Im excited and scared, i hope the job and staff dont suck, the shift leader is awesome tho.
I ended up getting a bus pass, cuz its only like a 10 min ride plus I wont have to pay for parking. and we are broke so we wouldn't be able to afford the gas.cuz SGI is a horrible company ><
yes... they keep fucking up on our auto pays. a couple months ago they took out 3 payments in one month (differ dates too) and they did it again, but only a double and im annoyed that was gonna buy me lunches for when I work. but it'll take a week or so to be re-paid. Stupid sgi...

Bradys moved in, ymore yays, but i think dez and i need to learn to open up some more, we stay locked up in our rooms at night and we don adventure down to the main floor often. lol Once we get used to it we may see her more often.

So yea back to work, i get a 20% discount there suzy shier, urban planet, mariposa, sirens... lol its pretty sweet.

i downloaded The legend of dragoon for ps1 and im playing it currently ^^


what else...

oh yea we have an awesome new chair in the living room and a new coffee table/end table. They are pretty nice, wood with glass tops.

yupp





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