I have no physical urge to write anything in my blog. Yet I do desire to write. I used to enjoy writing. When i was alone. I dont like writing with someone else in the room. I like writing in complete peace, i open up to myself more.
So its hard to wanna type out a blog.
I think its because my depression.
also a trigger from that, i think, is some ideas that have come into my head. (nothing bad guys dont worry) its just a decision I suddenly want to make. yet the choices both feel integrated into me. I cannot pick, for both i am loving and both i am selfish. I cannot win., SO i want a clear head before i think about it. Its hard, and distracting, but im just going to have to try and push thru a little harder to try and keep myself from plunging into a deep depression... (sounds fun eh?? :P)
i just want to be better....
sleep now.
Goodnight. <3 >WAML<
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Monday, March 9, 2009
****BASICS****
Full Name: Angel Lucille Thebeau
Nickname(s): ---deejay? if anyone called me that :P
Birthday: june 19 88
Hometown: Zelma
Where you live now:toontown
Height:5'3
Weight: umm maybe 115 or 120
Shoe Size: 7.5
Parent(s): Penny and Emery Thebeau
Siblings: Jay, Dusten, Trent, Kurtis
Bestfriend(s): Dez and Brady
Boy/Girlfriend: Dez!
Pet(s): Snake
****FAVOURTIES****
Colour(s): i like all colors, black ,pink, purple and red mostly
Show(s): House supernatural, gossip girl, ANTM is good too
Movie(s): Howls moving castle, The Prestige, batman, the last unicorn, the fountain, and more prolly, OMG willow :P
Actress(s):umm reese witherspoon?
Actor(s): johnny depp, christian bale, Patrick stewart, Hugh Jackman, prolly more
Song(s): The last unicorn and poison by groove coverage.
Singer(s): way to many to list.
Band(s):see above
DJ(s): me! :P lol no, umm again i like many. i cant just choose a few.
Animail(s):dogs
Food(s): poutine
Drink(s): pepsi and milk
Alcoholic Drink(s): Singapore sling
Memory(s):too many
Personal Item(s): my goth cuff bracelet.
Peice Of Clothing: technically my black angel pants but they still dont fit.. so, my black jeans.
Gift Ever Give To You: ha...umm too many.
Sport(s): Gymnastics
Thing To Do: comp?
Boys Name(s): Dominic
Girls Name(s):Sylea and Keeda
Book(s): Wheel of Time, and i do still love sweet valleys...lol
Cartoon(s):gummie bears, gargoyles, invader zim
Flower(s):lilacs roses
Season(s): summer/fall
Holiday(s): thanksgiving...mmm turkey and pumpkin pie
****WHAT****
What do you think of the way you look?: I think i enjoy it.
What do you think about your attitude?: could be better and im trying,
What do you think about life after death?: iegh.. im not sure...and im always thinking of it.
What do you think about karma?: could be
What do you think about love?: it can be found
What do you think about fate?:always beign re-written, but it is there
What do you think about your self?: depends, soemtimes i hate myself other times im happy with me.
What do you tell yourself if times get hard?: ?
What would you give your life for?: dom
What do you think about your first love?: jerk
What do you think about the first person that loved you?: jerk
What are you scared of?: spiders
What was the saddest moment of your life so far?: Not sure
What would life be without friends?: horrible
Without family?: livable..
****MISC****
If all of a sudden you had the ability to do one thing better than everyone else, have one amazing talent, what would it be? something useful?
If you had any say whatsoever in what you would be named, what would you have named yourself?
angele/angel was a good pick
What kind of relationship are you looking for or currently in? forever term :P
Where do you see yourself in 10 years?dunno
Let's say that two days from now the world were to end...what would you spend your last hours doing? ive been thinkign that about 2012, i do believe it, but onmly out of fear. umm maybe cry and be confused in all honesty.
Are you sterotyped? sure
Do you prefer short talk or deep conversations? both can be fun
Who can you spill your feelings to and feel completely relieved afterwards? no one yet. Dez is almost there lol :p but i am a very inner person.
What's a quote that means a lot to you or represents you or your outlook on life?
"People Take Different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road, doesn't mean they've gotten lost."
When you dream, do you see what's happening in a character's view or camera type view? both
What is your character usually in your dreams? usually me, but changes
Do you daydream? not really, I dont really have a visual memory or imagination.
What do you dream about? many things
Which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most? Dez, brady, troy, and thats all...i guess
What do you think of soulmates? they coudl be real
What's an object you can't live without?comp? or a car
What's something you ALWAYS have on you? my piercings
Wouldn't you just love to hug someone right now? sure
What's your opinion on love? it takes work, its not some easy fairy tale.
What's a happy memory of a time you've spent with the opp. sex? Hanging out down by the river and the flame that doesnt go out. talking with an old and missed friend.
What's the nicest thing any one has ever told you? ive been told a lot of nice things I cannot chose.
If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to? Dom and Dez
If you won the lottery what would you do with your, let's say, 18 million dollars?
buy a house and a car or two, and schooling for dom.
What thing always makes your day when it happens/ you see it?: <3Dominic
What one thing about a friend always pisses you off?: i have many ppl peeves.
What confuses you the most about life?: death and the point
Do you like your life? Why or why not?: tough question
What is your greatest achievement?:i havent done all that much but having Dom I would say.
What is the one thing you regret?: i have many but i doubt i would change anything.
What is your inner most dream?:dunno, dont really have one i guess
If you could have one wish, what would it be?: To have money right now?
Do you wish have children?: I have one
If so, how many?: 1
What year of your life has been the best for you so far?: 16-17
What one person has totally had impact on your life?: too many
Is there anyone you ever let go and wish hadn't?: yupp
What thought do you find you self thinking of the most daily?: death, missing ppl, the past, the future.
What time do you wake up in the morning? sometimes too early.
What _______ do you use? (if any)
-facewash: changes by prices lol
-soap/bodywash:changes by prices lol
-lotion: some cool bamboo stuff Nin gave me!
-perfume/lotion:some neat citris stuff nin got me
-makeup:lots
-toothpaste: aquafresh
-mouthwash: changes
-floss:
-deoderent:i dont actually kno, but it smells like watermelon :P
-shampoo/conditioner: changes
-astringent: ?
-mints:meh
-hair products: changes
-upkeep products: changes
What is one thing no one else knows about you?: if I told then I wouldnt have one
What is your worst fear?: Death
What annoys you? sometimes everything....
Full Name: Angel Lucille Thebeau
Nickname(s): ---deejay? if anyone called me that :P
Birthday: june 19 88
Hometown: Zelma
Where you live now:toontown
Height:5'3
Weight: umm maybe 115 or 120
Shoe Size: 7.5
Parent(s): Penny and Emery Thebeau
Siblings: Jay, Dusten, Trent, Kurtis
Bestfriend(s): Dez and Brady
Boy/Girlfriend: Dez!
Pet(s): Snake
****FAVOURTIES****
Colour(s): i like all colors, black ,pink, purple and red mostly
Show(s): House supernatural, gossip girl, ANTM is good too
Movie(s): Howls moving castle, The Prestige, batman, the last unicorn, the fountain, and more prolly, OMG willow :P
Actress(s):umm reese witherspoon?
Actor(s): johnny depp, christian bale, Patrick stewart, Hugh Jackman, prolly more
Song(s): The last unicorn and poison by groove coverage.
Singer(s): way to many to list.
Band(s):see above
DJ(s): me! :P lol no, umm again i like many. i cant just choose a few.
Animail(s):dogs
Food(s): poutine
Drink(s): pepsi and milk
Alcoholic Drink(s): Singapore sling
Memory(s):too many
Personal Item(s): my goth cuff bracelet.
Peice Of Clothing: technically my black angel pants but they still dont fit.. so, my black jeans.
Gift Ever Give To You: ha...umm too many.
Sport(s): Gymnastics
Thing To Do: comp?
Boys Name(s): Dominic
Girls Name(s):Sylea and Keeda
Book(s): Wheel of Time, and i do still love sweet valleys...lol
Cartoon(s):gummie bears, gargoyles, invader zim
Flower(s):lilacs roses
Season(s): summer/fall
Holiday(s): thanksgiving...mmm turkey and pumpkin pie
****WHAT****
What do you think of the way you look?: I think i enjoy it.
What do you think about your attitude?: could be better and im trying,
What do you think about life after death?: iegh.. im not sure...and im always thinking of it.
What do you think about karma?: could be
What do you think about love?: it can be found
What do you think about fate?:always beign re-written, but it is there
What do you think about your self?: depends, soemtimes i hate myself other times im happy with me.
What do you tell yourself if times get hard?: ?
What would you give your life for?: dom
What do you think about your first love?: jerk
What do you think about the first person that loved you?: jerk
What are you scared of?: spiders
What was the saddest moment of your life so far?: Not sure
What would life be without friends?: horrible
Without family?: livable..
****MISC****
If all of a sudden you had the ability to do one thing better than everyone else, have one amazing talent, what would it be? something useful?
If you had any say whatsoever in what you would be named, what would you have named yourself?
angele/angel was a good pick
What kind of relationship are you looking for or currently in? forever term :P
Where do you see yourself in 10 years?dunno
Let's say that two days from now the world were to end...what would you spend your last hours doing? ive been thinkign that about 2012, i do believe it, but onmly out of fear. umm maybe cry and be confused in all honesty.
Are you sterotyped? sure
Do you prefer short talk or deep conversations? both can be fun
Who can you spill your feelings to and feel completely relieved afterwards? no one yet. Dez is almost there lol :p but i am a very inner person.
What's a quote that means a lot to you or represents you or your outlook on life?
"People Take Different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road, doesn't mean they've gotten lost."
When you dream, do you see what's happening in a character's view or camera type view? both
What is your character usually in your dreams? usually me, but changes
Do you daydream? not really, I dont really have a visual memory or imagination.
What do you dream about? many things
Which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most? Dez, brady, troy, and thats all...i guess
What do you think of soulmates? they coudl be real
What's an object you can't live without?comp? or a car
What's something you ALWAYS have on you? my piercings
Wouldn't you just love to hug someone right now? sure
What's your opinion on love? it takes work, its not some easy fairy tale.
What's a happy memory of a time you've spent with the opp. sex? Hanging out down by the river and the flame that doesnt go out. talking with an old and missed friend.
What's the nicest thing any one has ever told you? ive been told a lot of nice things I cannot chose.
If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to? Dom and Dez
If you won the lottery what would you do with your, let's say, 18 million dollars?
buy a house and a car or two, and schooling for dom.
What thing always makes your day when it happens/ you see it?: <3Dominic
What one thing about a friend always pisses you off?: i have many ppl peeves.
What confuses you the most about life?: death and the point
Do you like your life? Why or why not?: tough question
What is your greatest achievement?:i havent done all that much but having Dom I would say.
What is the one thing you regret?: i have many but i doubt i would change anything.
What is your inner most dream?:dunno, dont really have one i guess
If you could have one wish, what would it be?: To have money right now?
Do you wish have children?: I have one
If so, how many?: 1
What year of your life has been the best for you so far?: 16-17
What one person has totally had impact on your life?: too many
Is there anyone you ever let go and wish hadn't?: yupp
What thought do you find you self thinking of the most daily?: death, missing ppl, the past, the future.
What time do you wake up in the morning? sometimes too early.
What _______ do you use? (if any)
-facewash: changes by prices lol
-soap/bodywash:changes by prices lol
-lotion: some cool bamboo stuff Nin gave me!
-perfume/lotion:some neat citris stuff nin got me
-makeup:lots
-toothpaste: aquafresh
-mouthwash: changes
-floss:
-deoderent:i dont actually kno, but it smells like watermelon :P
-shampoo/conditioner: changes
-astringent: ?
-mints:meh
-hair products: changes
-upkeep products: changes
What is one thing no one else knows about you?: if I told then I wouldnt have one
What is your worst fear?: Death
What annoys you? sometimes everything....
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Copycat
ABC's nd I have prolly done this several times
A is for age: 20
B is for booze: Singapore sling
D is for Dad's name: Emery Alcid (sp?)
E is for essential items to bring to a party: a party? means no Dom... umm fun stuff...lol :P
F is for favourite song at the moment: ... sweet dreams <3
G is for game: DnD
H is for hometown: Zelma.
I is for instruments you play: comp? :P djing
J is for jam or jelly you like: raspberry?
K is for kids: Dominic
L is for love: Dez <3
M is for Mom's name: Penny
N is for name of your bestfriends: Dez and Brady
O is for overnight hospital stays: 5 days total.
P is for phobias: other ppls feet (i agree nin) spiders and most all insects
Q is for quote you like: "You have sexy shoulders" lol -anon
R is for reality show: blah
S is for siblings: 4 older brothers
T is for time you go to bed: between 10:30-2am
U is for university: Nah.
V is for vegetables you love: Broccoli
W is for worst trait: nail biting? and/or my short temper
X is for x-rays you've had: No idea. A few. Who cares anyway. They just couldn't think of another question for X. It's ALWAYS x-ray for X. New word people. ****I agree again Nin!
Y is for yummy food: poutine<3<3<3
Z is for zodiac sign: Gemini. Explains my personality quarrels...
GOODNIGHT!
A is for age: 20
B is for booze: Singapore sling
D is for Dad's name: Emery Alcid (sp?)
E is for essential items to bring to a party: a party? means no Dom... umm fun stuff...lol :P
F is for favourite song at the moment: ... sweet dreams <3
G is for game: DnD
H is for hometown: Zelma.
I is for instruments you play: comp? :P djing
J is for jam or jelly you like: raspberry?
K is for kids: Dominic
L is for love: Dez <3
M is for Mom's name: Penny
N is for name of your bestfriends: Dez and Brady
O is for overnight hospital stays: 5 days total.
P is for phobias: other ppls feet (i agree nin) spiders and most all insects
Q is for quote you like: "You have sexy shoulders" lol -anon
R is for reality show: blah
S is for siblings: 4 older brothers
T is for time you go to bed: between 10:30-2am
U is for university: Nah.
V is for vegetables you love: Broccoli
W is for worst trait: nail biting? and/or my short temper
X is for x-rays you've had: No idea. A few. Who cares anyway. They just couldn't think of another question for X. It's ALWAYS x-ray for X. New word people. ****I agree again Nin!
Y is for yummy food: poutine<3<3<3
Z is for zodiac sign: Gemini. Explains my personality quarrels...
GOODNIGHT!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Simple Definitions
http://www.swapmeetdave.com/Humor/Cats/Lunch.gif
so I found that cute... and seeing as the pic doesnt seem to show fully on my blog preview there is the link for the rest of it.
Brady is moving in with us in April!!! im so excited! Im hoping she will make me leave the house a bit more with her lol. Im so excited!
i miss having freinds.
when i got pregnant i panicked, and i kinda ditched all my friends, and when i moved to allan i lost contact with most.
Ive always had problems making friends. Ive been trying, but its tuff. And a lot of my old friends dont even live in stoon. making it that much harder to talk.
since i was little i always have wanted a friend to call me up and say "hey lets go shopping" and do coffee/shopping etc" and take pictures of our adventure at the mall etc, but for some reason ive never found anyone liek that. And for some reason i have problems beign the one to start those adventures.
Im also excited to coem back from disneyland so i can order my transcripts so i can apply to Marvel for may!!! I really hope i get in im excted a bit scared too..
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Angelology
Let others know a little more about yourself, re-post this as your name
followed by "ology"
***********FOOD-OLOGY***************
What is your salad dressing of choice?
French
What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
I enjoy many
What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?
poutine
What are your pizza toppings of choice?
Pep and mushroom
What do you like to put on your toast?
Butter
***********TECHNOLOGY***************
How many televisions are in your house?
2
What color cell phone do you have?
Black/Blue
***************BIOLOGY******************
Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right
Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
no
What is the last heavy item you lifted?
chairs? lol the one was kinda heavy?
Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
Yes
************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************
If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
depends what my state of mind is at the time, one day i would the next not
If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
Done
Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000
EW. prolly not
************DUMBOLOGY******************
How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
only one :( i miss flip flops
Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
1.5 years ago? lol
Last person you talked to:?
Dez in person or brady on msn
Last person you hugged?
Dez
**************FAVORITOLOGY****************
Season?
early fall
Holiday?
thanksgiving
Day of the week?
I don't like any particular day.
Month?
I guess I don't like any particular day of the month either.
***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************
Missing someone?
Always.
Mood?
Indifferent.
What are you listening to?
Mind.in.a.box.
Watching?
Nothing right now.
Worrying about?
bills
***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************
First place you went this morning?
To my bathroom.
What's the last movie you saw?
push
Do you smile often?
ive been trying to more recentrly
QUESTIONS
1)Do you always answer your phone?
If I know who it is.
2) You love...?
My friends
3) If you could change your eye color what would it be?
green... Ive always wanted green eyes.. lol but i love my brown
4) What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
No Clue.
5) Do you own a digital camera?
yea
6)Have you ever had a pet fish?
never had one
7) Favorite Christmas song?
let it snow maybe? i liek them all tho
8) What's on your wish list for your birthday?
to get out of this hole im in
9) Can you do push ups?
a couple.. lol
10) Can you do a chin up?
sometimes
11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
Scared as hell.
13) Ever been in a car wreck?
not really
14) Do you have an accent?
Doesn't everyone?
15) What is the last song to make you cry?
poison - groove coverage
16) Plans tonight?
star trek? high? i dunno
17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
im not there yet but im getting close
18) Name 3 things you bought yesterday:
dnd Mascot :P lamp and a lightbulb?
19) Have you ever been given roses?
Dezzy does!
20) Current worry?
bills/my life
21) Current hate right now?
myself
22) Met someone who changed your life?
a lot
23) How did you bring in the New Year?
hung out with friends
24) What song represents you?
---
25) Name three people who might complete this?
i unno
26) What were you doing 12 AM last night?
star trek ^^
27) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
im so tired!!!! uuggghh
followed by "ology"
***********FOOD-OLOGY*****
What is your salad dressing of choice?
French
What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
I enjoy many
What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?
poutine
What are your pizza toppings of choice?
Pep and mushroom
What do you like to put on your toast?
Butter
***********TECHNOLOGY*****
How many televisions are in your house?
2
What color cell phone do you have?
Black/Blue
***************BIOLOGY****
Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right
Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
no
What is the last heavy item you lifted?
chairs? lol the one was kinda heavy?
Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
Yes
************BULLCRAPOLOGY*
If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
depends what my state of mind is at the time, one day i would the next not
If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
Done
Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000
EW. prolly not
************DUMBOLOGY*****
How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
only one :( i miss flip flops
Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
1.5 years ago? lol
Last person you talked to:?
Dez in person or brady on msn
Last person you hugged?
Dez
**************FAVORITOLOGY
Season?
early fall
Holiday?
thanksgiving
Day of the week?
I don't like any particular day.
Month?
I guess I don't like any particular day of the month either.
***********CURRENTOLOGY***
Missing someone?
Always.
Mood?
Indifferent.
What are you listening to?
Mind.in.a.box.
Watching?
Nothing right now.
Worrying about?
bills
***************RANDOMOLOGY
First place you went this morning?
To my bathroom.
What's the last movie you saw?
push
Do you smile often?
ive been trying to more recentrly
QUESTIONS
1)Do you always answer your phone?
If I know who it is.
2) You love...?
My friends
3) If you could change your eye color what would it be?
green... Ive always wanted green eyes.. lol but i love my brown
4) What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
No Clue.
5) Do you own a digital camera?
yea
6)Have you ever had a pet fish?
never had one
7) Favorite Christmas song?
let it snow maybe? i liek them all tho
8) What's on your wish list for your birthday?
to get out of this hole im in
9) Can you do push ups?
a couple.. lol
10) Can you do a chin up?
sometimes
11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
Scared as hell.
13) Ever been in a car wreck?
not really
14) Do you have an accent?
Doesn't everyone?
15) What is the last song to make you cry?
poison - groove coverage
16) Plans tonight?
star trek? high? i dunno
17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
im not there yet but im getting close
18) Name 3 things you bought yesterday:
dnd Mascot :P lamp and a lightbulb?
19) Have you ever been given roses?
Dezzy does!
20) Current worry?
bills/my life
21) Current hate right now?
myself
22) Met someone who changed your life?
a lot
23) How did you bring in the New Year?
hung out with friends
24) What song represents you?
---
25) Name three people who might complete this?
i unno
26) What were you doing 12 AM last night?
star trek ^^
27) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
im so tired!!!! uuggghh
Monday, February 23, 2009
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